January 3rd, 2012

This is "Mr. Wonderful"

This is "us".

The backside of "Mr. Wonderful".

It's the New Year! If you know me at all you *know* I love the new year. The new year follows close on the heels of my favorite Christmas movie: A Christmas Carol, where-in Scrooge gets the most incredible gift anyone could ever get, in my opinion. NOT the chance to look at his life ... but THROUGH that look at his life, the ability to SEE who he has been and who he has become ... and the actual effect he has on the people around him. When he sees how they see him, he is finally able to see who he IS rather than who he THOUGHT he was, or intended to be.

THAT is the gift. And as you all know ... THAT is the thing that lights me on fire every year as I look back at the former year and forward to the new year: What new thing do I know about myself this year? What new thing can I implement (or perhaps re-implement an old thing that was really working) that would create better results? better health? better relationships? better financial situations/opportunities?

I'm going to give myself til week's end to finalize my decision. I bet you a nickel, however, that the two things I am going to choose are one: PLANNING (like ... in my day planner ... actual PLANNING in ADVANCE. Currently I do it for work and for the schedule with Basil ... but that's it. I'm sure I could have a better flow to my day if I just sat and planned how I wanted that ENTIRE day to go.) and two: PUNCTUALITY. I actually chose it last year and made some serious efforts towards it ... until I noticed a few months later that it was completely OFF of my radar, which is an interesting notice ... because what would take it off of my radar? What is my deal with punctuality? I really don't WANT to go anywhere that doesn't have a flexible beginning time. Why is that?

Curious.

I would learn some very curious things about myself, I think, if I swam in the waters of "punctual" and if nothing else, just saw how that made me feel. It might bring up things for me that make me understand why I'm "anti" fixed start times. And I am. It's not like I don't understand the need for fixed event times. Clearly we need them. And I honor them. I go to work relatively on time. I pick up and drop off my son relatively on time. But I don't excel at it and I don't seem to want to. But why?

I am sure Dr. Phil would say: Just behave your way out of it! You could psycho analyze it or you could just DO it. Just GO to work early. Just drop off your boy EARLY. Just DO it.

I'm going to think about it til Saturday. I can tell you, though, that punctuality and planning are the two things I have found myself the MOST resistant to in my life. However, when I plan I am nigh unstoppable. I'm already pretty good with the plates I have spinning ... however, when I planned? I was painting for an hour first thing each morning. I was doing things that I SAID I had wanted to do but had not done. When I plan I FIND the time for preferred activities AND required activities.

Who knows how I would feel about being perfectly punctual everywhere I go because I have NEVER done that. What a victory that would be to understand it and master it.

In the meanwhile, I promised PHOTOS. Photos of ME and MR. WONDERFUL. But I also promised Mr. Wonderful to honor his privacy. So ... what I have posted here are some photos that will give you a "taste" of us .... but that won't give you a CLUE as to his identity ... at least .... I don't believe they will.

Enjoy. Life is good. I have lots of work and I am enjoying being in this relationship with Mr. Wonderful. He is truly a good man and he is incredibly considerate of me and sweet to me, and based on the way we affect each other and the way he responds to me, I feel like I am truly good for him. We cheer each other on. We ask each other the hard questions. We cooperate. We communicate. We problem solve. We delve. And we adore each other.

Thank you Universe.

Thank you God.

I feel thankful.

And feeling thankful always spurs me on to find what more I can do. What can I give? How can I improve? Much has been given me. I want to give back. I'll be better at *that* if I am "streamlined". Hence .... the New Year's resolutions.

By the way: The health resolutions I waited all the way to March to set for myself? The sit ups, side ups, bicycles, leg lifts, and stretches? I did them EVERY day except for labor day (I forgot! went to a concert and came home and fell asleep!) and except for one week in September when I was really ill and it just hurt too much to do them. It felt wise to take that week off and let my body recuperate. Other than those two exceptions, I did ten of each of those EVERY DAY OF EVERY MONTH from the time I started them in March. And I feel good about that. I'm still doing them at the moment. I imagine I will keep them. I will tell you this weekend.